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Please be patient as I deliver a brief and anguished rant. I came to a conclusion today. I am in the wrong universe.
“Duty, personal responsibility, obligated by grace, constrained by love, compelled by gratitude, love expressed by obedience”; these words which once indicated spiritual integrity and the pursuit of holiness are now viewed as profane religiosity; pharisaic and unenlightened.
These ideals, regarded as the highest expressions of devotion to a Mighty King and Glorious God, are now disparaged; declared to be manipulative and controlling, robbing men of the joy that could be theirs if they can be delivered from their shackles. Perhaps, such as the “Christian” heavy metal rock band that proudly wears their t-shirts emblazoned with the words: “F&#% Obedience” I can still be delivered to the new paradigm of faith, except that I am altogether unwilling to be “delivered” to such depths.
I still believe in antiquated concepts such as the confession of sin and repentance from same as valid spiritual responsibilities. I believe Jesus is pleased when I am deeply wounded by my own sin and unwilling to blame my mother, and is quick to forgive me of the particular iniquity to which my flesh has locked onto when I own it as my own and turn to Him for deliverance from it.
I still believe that I am locked in mortal combat with my flesh, and will be until I die or until Jesus comes. I believe that sometimes I give in to it. I am not “lost” because of it because of the wonderful miracle of grace – but I am duty bound to a loving Savior to confess it and turn from it. I believe that when I accepted Christ, my sins were forgiven, all of them were forgiven, but I am not by this great grace given license to live a pornographic and irreverent life, gorging myself on the pleasures of this world. I must of my own volition “flee youthful lusts” and to “cleanse myself from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.” (2 Corinthians 7:1) I have been immediately sanctified positionally, but I am not immediately perfected. The Holy Spirit is working tirelessly in my life to bring me to perfection, but I must cooperate with that work as I pursue holiness. And yes, I have been given a new nature which is of God, but my “old man” rises up from time to time and I must, by the grace of God and the power of the Word of God beat him back into submission.
It would appear that such attitudes are both monolithic and pre-historic. I almost wish that whatever alien mother-ship that dropped me here would pick me up – because I am obviously a dinosaur in this place.